Fight For Your Right to Skank

The whole engagement thing does not make any sense. It is the most unpractical and unreasonable thing I have ever heard. I do not want to practice for all-state... I'm so mad at whoever picked Don Juan. It's completely ridiculous.

This break was interesting... I went to an awesome show with my favorite freshmen!!! I hung out with Nathan a ton. I hung out with Peter a ton. I saw a bunch of really good movies. It feels like chrismas was forever ago. I drank so much coffee. I didn't work out at all.... I didn't really see my band friends. Or my friends from South. But tonight should be fun, right???

Midwest Ska Fest tomorrow gangstas!!! I'm so excited to go to a show with Trevor (Snodel that is....) and Paul and all their crazy friends. It's going to be so fun to see Peter try to skank, too.... hehe!

I don't understand. I just don't understand.

I really want someone who will talk to me straight.

Last night was really really fun but I kinda feel bad. I always feel bad after stuff. Lame.

I'm so excited for this christmas. I do not know why?!?!? I am figuring out what I'm getting everyone and it's really exciting. And I really hope mistletoe madness will be amazing. I'm totally pumped. Except that creepy Austin is creepy. Whatevs.

Today was soooo fun in French.

Genevieve, You have my headband.... I want it back..... hehehe

I want Caridee to win ANTM cause that would be rockin' awesome.

hehe

*content*

Yeah I got into all-state

And tomorrow will be the sno day when I'm not going to school anyway..... LAME the clouds are nubes

I really hate it when people say they are thankful for me. I still have problems accepting compliments. I don't know why. I guess my self-esteem is so low that I feel like they are lying to me.

Sometimes I want to end it. I am worried that I am missing out on something better. But then I feel like a jerk. Will I be living the rest of my life like that? Never being satisfied with what I have, even if it is amazing, cause I'll always be thinking of what else could be happening? That would suck. And it probably is true.

This year is harder than I want it to be. And I'm making it harder for myself by not doing the work I should. I swear I will get a bunch of bad grades on my progress report and my mom will freak out and I will be stuck at home for a long time. Just because I have senioritis and I don't have any motivation. How do people like Claire Peterson do it? Seriously. I do not have that kind of will. I can't study for 6 hours for some test. I really don't believe that's possible.

How
come I
am still tired?
I should be better
by now, should I not?